The vastness of the sea is overwhelming. I sat there staring at violent waves that calmed down as the caressed the shores. I thought to myself, this is the relationship between life and man.

Life like the Sea is so vast, so diverse, so full of energy and abundance. When it touches us it has the ability to mold us into being the people that we are. The gentle waves change the face of the land, causing impressions that make the beauty of the beaches unparalleled. We too as people are moulded by life and we are beautiful because of the experienes we have.

Like the shore that makes itself available to the waves-make yourself available to life. It will never leave you without a lesson.

Open your arms and let the cool breeze blow into your face....

I am often asked what inspires me to write. There are many experiences that have shaped my life. There have been good and bad times. Along with each of the gliches came small bounties that saved me from falling flat on my face and dampening my spirit.

I write for all those people who come into my life, at the time when I least expect any hope and lend me a comforting shoulder. As unlucky as I have been wordly relationships, I have been blessed with wonderful friends who help me to keep my spirits alive.

I hope this deepawali- brings in new hope and light to each of those beautiful lives that brighten me.

A message for all my single friends:

No one whether a current or future mate has any obligation to provide you happiness on a platter. You are responsible for your own happiness and no man will ever come to satisfy the hunger or need.

Just remind yourself- that you are the main course youself whereas your man is the dessert.

So while you wait for the dessert to come by- its good to be on a diet :))

Am not going to credit myself to this one..a very dear friend has some beautiful memories attached with this number.

So dearie this one is for you- for being such a fantastic friend and confidante.


When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.
Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, .....

Had a long conversation with an ol' friend about how we share the karmic patterns of others. We were trying to deduce a quick and easy way to cut through.

Long ago I had read in one of the Richard Bach books that like every cloud has its journey predecided,we too have our destiny predecided. Every person is there in your life for a reason, you may not see it from where you stand, but there is a bigger plan of which you are a part.

Life may not have taken the desired turns for me, there is a alot that I want to run back to change. Yet again i think- would I be me, if it was not for the events that shaped my personality, I would not be half the woman I am today .When the negative hits I just remind myself: "What does not kill you, makes you a better person."

All the religions of the world have said God exists. I don't know whether he is there or not, but one thing I know: the more contained and calm you become, the more godly you become.

Love what you do and appreciate where you are. Be meditative while you are doing it - be rest assured it one of the best laid plans.

There is a new awakening.
My sorrows have come to an end.

The love that once soared me to boundaries undefined.
Died at the source,giving my stifling heart some respite.

Now skies upon skies are available for my flight.
For now there is no love that possesses-just oneness

I have shifted out of the paradigm and merged with the whole
No man no woman will tear me to pieces again

The dividing priced possession has been smashed.
Today I killed the love in my mind...

I am free to fly-and my ecstasy is boundary less

I am celebrating freedom.....

Ripples of water under the lotus leaves
Define a moment precious and poignant.

A drop has surrendered to gravity and slipped off the leaf,
Ready to lose its previous identity and joins the vastness of the water below.

I imagine that it must have trembled before it fell,
Hanging just on the edge between the known and the unknowable.

I too hang on the edge of life
Subtly I recognise something is completing.

The sadness is building but I try not to hold on.
I remind myself -Something greater is awaiting

New dimensions are there to be discovered.
I am past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work.

So like a drop on the edge I shall-go with it-for liberation.

I wait as it the only thing to do.
Slowly as life moves in a direction unknown to me

I watch the oyster coat the grain of sand and making it into a pearl.
Watching my emotions as they shed like a withering whirl.

Through all the phases of the moon passing overhead
I must be patient, so in tune with the rhythms of the moon

Soaring in unity to become one with it.
It time to be passive, letting nature take its course.

I cannot be sleepy or exude indifference
For soon I know its going to be time for something momentous.

It is a time full of mystery, like the hours just before the dawn.
It is a time when the only thing to do is to wait.

So I wait as it the only thing to do.
Slowly as life moves in a direction unknown to me

I want to open up to the world. I realise that my life should reach out to others.

The blissfulness, the benediction, the ecstasy should not be contained within me like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing enlightenment, sharing the joy of my dance of the beyond.

I want to be like the Queen of Rainbows that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. I want to beem with sexual energy, very alive, and full of possibilities. I want to snap my fingers to the music of love.

In my palm I shall hold an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. I am not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - I just want to spread them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love.

I want to float on the waters of emotion swirl playfully and spread my joy around for all to share.

At- SHUNIYA- the Zero level fool.

I have nothing more to lose.

Moment to moment, and with every step, like a fool I leave the past behind. I carry nothing more than purity, innocence and trust.I want to be in harmony with all that surrounds me. My intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment I believe I have the support of the universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventures await me in the river of life.

I am at a no loss situation and the 'zero' place occupied by mel is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.

Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be, and when we recognize this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play.

I am going to the joy of being alive, like a butterfly that has emerged from its chrysalis into the promise of the light. I remind myself of the time that I was a child, discovering seashells on the beach or building castles in the sand without any concern that the waves might come and wash them away in the next moment. I know that life is a game, and I have to carry on with no sense of embarrassment or pretense.

I remind myself that something wonderful is just on the horizon, and I have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms...

Even though I might not need men- I still do wait for my Knight in Shining Armour

I am feeling "all tied up in knots". I know I have a light that still shines within, but sometimes I feel I suppress my own vitality trying to meet so many demands and expectations.

I give up my power and vision in return for being accepted by the very same forces that have imprisoned them. The danger is apparent because a volcanic eruption about to take place.I am trying to find a healing outlet for this potential explosion. It is essential to find a way to release whatever tensions and stresses might be building up inside me right now.

Guess am going to beat on a pillow, jump up and down, go out into the wilderness and scream at the empty sky--anything to shake up my energy and allow it to circulate freely. I just cant wait for a catastrophe to happen...

I guess I need to cut the crap and remind myself- I DONT NEED MEN

My past is no more and my future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist.

One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist.

The only reality is here,in the reality of now.

I am listening to my heart, move according to my heart, whatsoever the stake.

A condition of complete simplicity costing not less than everything.... To be simple is arduous, because to be simple costs everything that you have. I have to lose all to be simple.Many people have chosen to be complex and they have forgotten how to be simple. But only a simple heart throbs with the present reality, hand in hand. Only a simple heart sings in deep harmony.

I have found my present, my heart, my own throb, my own beat.

Dancing in the wind and the rain reminds me that celebration never needs to depend on the outside circumstances. I need not wait for a special holiday or a formal occasion, nor a sunny and cloudless day. True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude.

I am changing. I am becoming more and more available and open to the many opportunities that are to celebrate in life, and to spread this by contagion to others. I don't bother about scheduling a party on my calendar.

I am allowing myself to let my hair down, take my shoes off, and start splashing in the puddles right now.

A party is happening all around me every moment!

I am starting with a new job, in a new country with a new approach.I ask myself what my security blankets are....nothing appears

Knowledge is certain; the search for personal knowing is very, very hazardous. Nobody can guarantee it. If you ask me if I can guarantee anything, I say I cannot guarantee myself anything. I can only guarantee danger, that much is certain. I can only guarantee myself a long adventure with every possibility of losing and never reaching the goal. But one thing is certain: the very search will help me to grow.

I can guarantee only growth. Danger will be there, sacrifice will be there; I will be moving every day into the unknown, into the uncharted, and there will be no map to follow, no guide to follow.

Yes, there are millions of dangers and I can go astray and I can get lost, but that is the only way one grows. Insecurity is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.

These tenses--past, present and future--are not the tenses of time; they are tenses of the mind. That which is no longer before the mind becomes the past. That which is before the mind is the present. And that which is going to be before the mind is the future.

Past is that which is no longer before you. Future is that which is not yet before you. And present is that which is before you and is slipping out of your sight. What is gone is gone!

And don't cling to the present because that is also going and soon it will be past. Don't cling to the future--hopes, imaginations, plans for tomorrow--because tomorrow will become today, will become yesterday.

Everything is going to become yesterday. Everything is going to go out of your hands. Clinging will simply create misery.I will have to let go.I am starting afresh.....just experiencing each moment for what it is and what I percieve it be....

So HOLA learns to live

Some enchanted evening you're going to meet your soulmate, the perfect person who will meet all your needs and fulfill all your dreams. Right? Wrong!

This fantasy that songwriters and poets are so fond of perpetuating has its roots in memories of the womb, where we were so secure and "at one" with our mothers; it's no wonder we have hankered to return to that place all our lives. But, to put it quite brutally, it is a childish dream. And it's amazing we hang on to it so stubbornly in the face of reality.

Nobody, whether it's your current mate or some dreamed-of partner in the future, has any obligation to deliver your happiness on a platter--nor could they even if they wanted to. Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity.

Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.

There is an enormous wheel representing time, fate, karma. Galaxies spin around this constantly moving circle, and the twelve signs of the zodiac appear on its circumference. Just inside the circumference are the eight trigrams of the I Ching, and even closer to the center are the four directions, each illuminated by the energy of lightning. The spinning triangle is at this moment pointed upward, toward the divine, and the Chinese symbol of yin and yang, male and female, creative and receptive, lies at the center.
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t has often been said that the only unchanging thing in the world is change itself. Life is continuously changing, evolving, dying and being reborn. All opposites play a part in this vast circular pattern. If you cling to the edge of the wheel you can get dizzy! Move toward the center of the cyclone and relax, knowing that this too will pass.

Another one from me....


Silently she walks the path of a dark lonely night...
Shimmering in "his" aura and bringing in light...
Be it dawn or dusk she bestows her twilight...
An occassional star might accompany her..
and play with her lighter side...
But there would always be a darker side to her...
A side that only her beloved would know..
Her sun whose light makes her glow..
So day and day out she waits for him
For the moment when his hot rays will touch her being..
For then alone will the darker side of the moon come alive..
A moment of glory for which she strives...

I have to start trusting the universe....and jump like a bungee jumper without the cord! I have to exhibit the quality of absolute trust, with no reservations or secret safety nets.

There would be tremendous sense of exhilaration if only I can take the jump and move into the unknown, even if the idea scares me to death. It is a quantum leap for which I won't make any elaborate plans or preparations.

I'll would not settle my things or pack my suitcase and take it with me." No, I would just jump, with hardly a thought for what happens next.

So here comes HOLA>>>>>>