Always taken pride in being the smart one who knows the way to maneuver and transverse my way through complex people situations but failed miserably at my own personal relationships. There is only one logical explanation for this- an amazing ability to dwell in state of familiarity with doom!
At a very fundamental level I harvested an inseparable bond with solitude and "bad endings"...all because of my lack of experience and fear of associating with the "real thing". It has been a convenient position to play victim and confuse others and myself with word play!
Did not realise it but had started the year with the clearest creative visualization. The process started through casual conversation but before I knew it manifested into my "real thing"....yes I am madly and deeply in love. I would have thought that past experiences would have left me equipped to handle it well...but I was wrong. All preparations and "word play" has had no bearing on the real thing....it has in fact paved a divorce between solitude and me....
I'm without my armour of words and guard yet feel in the safest place I can possibly be in. I do ask myself whether I am ready but the minute I voice the question....it seems irrelevant....I just instinctively know its not only the real thing but the right one....
Hola has transformed....
At a very fundamental level I harvested an inseparable bond with solitude and "bad endings"...all because of my lack of experience and fear of associating with the "real thing". It has been a convenient position to play victim and confuse others and myself with word play!
Did not realise it but had started the year with the clearest creative visualization. The process started through casual conversation but before I knew it manifested into my "real thing"....yes I am madly and deeply in love. I would have thought that past experiences would have left me equipped to handle it well...but I was wrong. All preparations and "word play" has had no bearing on the real thing....it has in fact paved a divorce between solitude and me....
I'm without my armour of words and guard yet feel in the safest place I can possibly be in. I do ask myself whether I am ready but the minute I voice the question....it seems irrelevant....I just instinctively know its not only the real thing but the right one....
Hola has transformed....
