Ripples of water under the lotus leaves
Define a moment precious and poignant.

A drop has surrendered to gravity and slipped off the leaf,
Ready to lose its previous identity and joins the vastness of the water below.

I imagine that it must have trembled before it fell,
Hanging just on the edge between the known and the unknowable.

I too hang on the edge of life
Subtly I recognise something is completing.

The sadness is building but I try not to hold on.
I remind myself -Something greater is awaiting

New dimensions are there to be discovered.
I am past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work.

So like a drop on the edge I shall-go with it-for liberation.

I wait as it the only thing to do.
Slowly as life moves in a direction unknown to me

I watch the oyster coat the grain of sand and making it into a pearl.
Watching my emotions as they shed like a withering whirl.

Through all the phases of the moon passing overhead
I must be patient, so in tune with the rhythms of the moon

Soaring in unity to become one with it.
It time to be passive, letting nature take its course.

I cannot be sleepy or exude indifference
For soon I know its going to be time for something momentous.

It is a time full of mystery, like the hours just before the dawn.
It is a time when the only thing to do is to wait.

So I wait as it the only thing to do.
Slowly as life moves in a direction unknown to me

I want to open up to the world. I realise that my life should reach out to others.

The blissfulness, the benediction, the ecstasy should not be contained within me like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing enlightenment, sharing the joy of my dance of the beyond.

I want to be like the Queen of Rainbows that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. I want to beem with sexual energy, very alive, and full of possibilities. I want to snap my fingers to the music of love.

In my palm I shall hold an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. I am not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - I just want to spread them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love.

I want to float on the waters of emotion swirl playfully and spread my joy around for all to share.

At- SHUNIYA- the Zero level fool.

I have nothing more to lose.

Moment to moment, and with every step, like a fool I leave the past behind. I carry nothing more than purity, innocence and trust.I want to be in harmony with all that surrounds me. My intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment I believe I have the support of the universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventures await me in the river of life.

I am at a no loss situation and the 'zero' place occupied by mel is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.

Life is rarely as serious as we believe it to be, and when we recognize this fact, it responds by giving us more and more opportunities to play.

I am going to the joy of being alive, like a butterfly that has emerged from its chrysalis into the promise of the light. I remind myself of the time that I was a child, discovering seashells on the beach or building castles in the sand without any concern that the waves might come and wash them away in the next moment. I know that life is a game, and I have to carry on with no sense of embarrassment or pretense.

I remind myself that something wonderful is just on the horizon, and I have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms...

Even though I might not need men- I still do wait for my Knight in Shining Armour

I am feeling "all tied up in knots". I know I have a light that still shines within, but sometimes I feel I suppress my own vitality trying to meet so many demands and expectations.

I give up my power and vision in return for being accepted by the very same forces that have imprisoned them. The danger is apparent because a volcanic eruption about to take place.I am trying to find a healing outlet for this potential explosion. It is essential to find a way to release whatever tensions and stresses might be building up inside me right now.

Guess am going to beat on a pillow, jump up and down, go out into the wilderness and scream at the empty sky--anything to shake up my energy and allow it to circulate freely. I just cant wait for a catastrophe to happen...

I guess I need to cut the crap and remind myself- I DONT NEED MEN