A random thought....

Have you ever wondered why relationships go bad? Whatever happens to the constant attention that you could thrive on and why does it become an effort....

I have always believed that I have a very unique gift...make me fall even remotely close/ attracted to someone and all of a sudden the person becomes an "energy magnet" and gets whisked away. Have seen oddest of them turn such....and this has often perturbed me and in most instances hurt me...

However, outerspection gave me a fresh perspective ....human dynamics and energy overload at play...an appreciation that New Age has gifted to me. When two people interact, energy flows through them and if one is more assertive, more energy of that person flows into the other in the form of ideas/ thoughts almost subconsciously....and at certain level the two people start to mirror each other and the well proven adage - " similar repel and opposite attract" starts to play up at a sublime level. Further the giver has the expectation of being returned what rightfully belongs to him/her and whilst the receiver is in oblivia- the end result is thwarted intentions and unfulfilled expectations....

The solution lies in "balance" and not giving what the other is not ready to receive....hence we need to be aware of ourselves at all times and present to others..especially until you meet the "right one" with the perfectly complimenting energy level.

Hola awareness is a gift, use it well!

Courage needed....

I was getting caught up in the realms of introspection and retrospection, when I stumbled upon a new word -outerspection- which simply means stepping out of your shoes and then viewing yourself from the outside....My picture is surprisingly pleasant......Thirty-five, single, successful, surrounded in love, handful and with an articulation that could kill you with its clarity ....yet I struggle....focusing way too much on lost emotions and opportunities. I have got to stop relentless gratitude slander!

There are just to many blessings to ignore and I have got to acknowledge and say thank you....

The next few days are going to be about planning....and making a difference as a friend kindly pointed out that I run the risk of "hormonal burn out" if I do not channelise this quickly....

I need to think back of the inspiration that drove me until here and the hidden path will appear.

I cannot give up at this juncture as stopping halfway can sometimes be more trying then persevering the goal till the end.

Don't give up now Hola....you are not as alone as you think you are...