I just realised something- "Life is a bitch and then one day you die"

Walk ahead..........cause atleast the end is a reality.

Have been in a debate on how our individuality from within is inflicted by the conditioning from outside and effects our personality.

Our conditioning makes us unable to move freely and unconscious of our own true identity.Infact we sometimes don't ever touch base with our true individuality. Our growing years expose us to religious beliefs and morality as understood by others. We are given a set of dreams in alignment with what our parents want us to do. Our young innocent minds are coloured with the aspirations and goals preset by our society.

It's time to take a look at your own reflection in the mirror, and make a move to break out of whatever you have been conditioned by others to believe about yourself. Let loose-dance-sing-jog-paint-love-do whatever is needed to wake up the sleeping self within.

Only in this awakening will you discover your true self.

I have been grappling with many passing thoughts that were disturbing my mind no end. I took some time out and behind shut doors allowed them to come out in a random order on a piece of paper.What I saw staring at me was a reflections of the confusion that I had borne in my mind.When I saw my thoughts in front of me- I stopped and became conscious...

The awareness that is growing in me now is not the result of any"doing", nor do I need to struggle to make something happen. The darkness has started to dissolve. I allowed myself to settle, and remembered that deep insideI am just a witness, eternally silent, aware and unchanged.

This awareness has opened a channel from the circumference of activity to that center of witnessing. It is helping me to become detached......

Meditation is the key to finding true love.

First meditate, be blissful, then much love will happen of its own accord. Then being with others is beautiful and being alone is also beautiful.

You don't depend on others and you don't make others dependent on you. Then it is always a friendship, a friendliness. It never becomes a relationship, it is always a relatedness. . You relate; as long as things are moving beautifully, you share.

And if you see that the moment has come to depart because your paths separate at this crossroad, you say good-bye with great gratitude for all that the other has been to you, for all the joys and all the pleasures and all the beautiful moments that you have shared with the other. With no misery, with no pain, you simply separate.

When I was younger, I would spend hours narrating my innocent dreams to Neil. I always wanted a beautiful white house with a red roof and defined black window panes glazed by luscious green palms. I would walk him through the house that reflected my imagination and explain each details with the color of life filling each passing moment. I would imagine how we would together in love make this house our home. A spark of anticipatory delight that one day my dream would be a reality would make me beam with joy.

But now-there is nothing...my mind and heart have fallen to state of blankness. Years ago i would ask Neil what he was thinking and he would tell me that it was a blank feeling.This would astonish the thinking mind that I had....and would ask playfully what a complete waste of a beautiful mind is that....

Little did i realise that in my acceptance of him in the true sense I would accept a feel that was totally unknown to me and make it my way of being.

Reading a good book is like a dialogue with the psyche of the writer. The expressions of the mind take the form of words and put across what goes on in the mind while the author while writing. However this requires the reader to enhance a skill set of reading between the lines and understanding the underlying spirit.

With every page of my book coming along I feeling as though I am unveiling years of conditioning and reaching out to my true expression. I get in touch with my inner guide and write through.

Often one feels a little reluctant to trust this guide because we are so accustomed to taking our cues from the outside rather than from the inside. The truth of the deepest being is tries to show where to go right now...just the trust needs to be instilled.

It speaks in whispers, and sometimes I hesitate, not knowing if I have understood rightly. However the indications are clear and in following the inner guide I will feel more whole, more integrated, as if I know I moving outwards from the very center of my being.

Somehow this there is faith that I will go where I need to go.....

Very often when hear people refering to marriage as the utimate way of getting settled down and becoming grounded.

However being "grounded" or "centered"is actually returning to your Source. There is a vast reservoir of energy available to us. We do not need another person to finAnd that we tap into it not by thinking and planning but by getting grounded, centered, and silent enough to be in contact with the Source. It is within each of us, like a personal, individual sun giving us life and nourishment.

Pure energy, pulsating, available, it is ready to give us anything we need to accomplish something, and ready to welcome us back home when we want to rest. So go to the Source. It's always waiting for you, and you don't even have to step out of your house to find it.

Well this one is for a friend who called in to let me know that my blog needed some thoughts about love.

What we call love is really a whole spectrum of relating, reaching from the earth to the sky. At the most earthy level, love is sexual attraction. Many of us remain stuck there, because our conditioning has burdened our sexuality with all kinds of expectations and repressions.

Actually the biggest "problem" with sexual love is that it never lasts. Only if we accept this fact can we then really celebrate it for what it is - welcome its happening, and say good-bye with gratitude when it's not.

Then, as we mature, we can begin to experience the love that exists beyond sexuality and honors the unique individuality of the other. We begin to understand that our partner often functions as a mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole.

This love is based in freedom, not expectation or need. Its wings take us higher and higher towards the universal love that experiences all as one.

The last few days have been silent. I am at home nursing a fractured foot. As I see it,it is time to stop and watch......

I have been watching for a while now. In fact just watching the antics of my mind--not judging, not trying to stop them, not identifying, just watching as if they were traffic on the road, or ripples on the surface of a pond.

The antics of the mind are very amusing, they jump up and down and twists in all directions, trying to get my attention and seduce me into the mind game. To develop the knack of taking a distance from the mind is one of the greatest blessings. It is what meditation is all about- just watching, as if the mind belongs to somebody else.

I am ready to keep this distance now, and to watch the show without getting caught up in the drama.