I have had a fixed way of reacting for a while now.Everything seems to be repeating as if I have not learnt my lesson well enough and life comes staring back at me once so often. Infact its time for change.And I know a breakthrough is required when one wants to change the pattern of life.

All of us occasionally reach a point when "enough is enough." At such times it seems we must do something, anything, to throw off the burdens and restrictions that are limiting us. If we don't, they threaten to suffocate and cripple our very life energy itself. Its the only way bring the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough can bring to your life back into my life.....

So HOLA its time for change....

As I keep interacting with people who cross my path I figure out that each is projecting an image they have constructed in their minds, covering the real face of the person they are . This happens when we are not fully aware of our own expectations, desires and judgments. Instead of taking responsibility for them and owning them, we try to attribute them to others.

Of all credits that I give myself being true to myself is the most realistic one. I might not have done too well by the standards that others have set for me but when I stand in front of a mirror I identify with the person that I see. I have been true to myself at each stage. There will never be another chance so each moment that I live I give it my best shot.....

There are no discount sales for me either. Like a butterfly that has to face the restriction of the cocoon before it break through to develop wings for its maiden flight...the tests that life give me would ensure that what would emerge would be beautiful and well appreciated...

Well I know this is not the usual sorts- but this one is direct dil se....


The silent, mirrorlike receptiveness of a star-filled night
Cradles a woman in wait of her beloved to come
The reflection of the full moon in misty lake below.
Confirms that destiny has a hope to bestow...

She sits deep in meditation....
Praying to the goddess of the night
To give her depth, peace and understanding.
She knows she fights a battle she's losing.
Lost in love she has no boundaries
She waits earnestly for a moment she endears...
When she can get a glimpse of the one she loves so dearly...

Little does she know that in the same star filled night
Her beloved is on a different flight...
He has set out to find his destiny anew.
He is nurtured by prayers that go out from her bleeding heart
While she dwindles in his love....he makes a fresh start.

Hola celebrates Valentine Day....

Have been stuck in office through the day. For once as there were no expectation- I did not not feel hurt. It was a cool day.

However got a free of cost advise which made alot of sense. A friend mentioned that marry someone who shares no common thoughts or interest with you. It makes your life very easy with no complications!!

For a fact when you are together you are married and when you are away you are happy!!!

When the heart is innocent and the walls have disappeared, you are bridged with infinity. And you are not deceived; there is nothing that can be taken away from you. That which can be taken away from you is not worth keeping, and that which cannot be taken away from you... why should one be afraid of its being taken away? It cannot be taken away, there is no possibility. You cannot lose your real treasure.

I keep telling myself that whenever I think of moving ahead...

I have nothing to lose anymore. From here the only way is upward...

So watch out....HOLA will find her destiny

Somewhere in school I heard this quote: "Life is not a Tempest" nor is it a "Midsummer Dream". It is a "Comedy of Errors" so enjoy it "As you like it"....

The moment you start seeing life as non-serious play all the burden on your heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love - everything disappears. One starts living with a very light weight or almost no weight. So with this weightless one can fly in the open sky.

You realise that something wonderful is just on the horizon, and you have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms...

Also when you can't change the situation you might as well sit and enjoy it....

There is a weird situation in my life today I am not sure what I expected out of it but somewhere there is a disturbing pain.....So this one is for you....

The soul cleansing rain-washed away a tear....
The breeze did put to ease.... A storm.
The solitude that my heart once did fear...
Would now be my friend forever...

Words unspoken but thoughts so clear.
Nothing but a memory.... which is dear.

Slowly I walk down the chosen path.
Where decisions are mine to adhere...

Trust me that somewhere I tried and gave it all that I had.
This should take away the pain and save me from feeling bad...

So think of me as a friend you have...
And not a memory that would cease to be.
For whenever the rainbow would touch a lily.
The singing nightingale would tell u its me...

A thought keeps coming to my mind....I want to become like water.

When I say "become water" I mean become a flow and not remain stagnant. I want to move, and move like water. The movement has a few beautiful things about it. One, it always moves towards the depth, it always searches for the lowest ground. Water goes down, it searches for the lowest ground, it wants to be a nonentity. It does not want to declare itself unique, exceptional, extraordinary. It is the life force yet it has no ego....

The fluidity feel is also reminds me of my thought process....one moment it lost in a blog and then it rushes of to a distant land where my dreams wait for me....

Being by myself in the last few months I have tried to grapple with thoughts on how to handle being alone.

I have come to realise the distinction between being alone and being lonely. There is a tremendous difference between loneliness and aloneness. When you are lonely you are thinking of the other, you are missing the other. Loneliness is a negative state. The fact of the matter is that the other is not there. Loneliness is absence of the other.

Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive. It is a presence, overflowing presence. You are so full of presence that you can fill the whole universe with your presence and there is no need for anybody.

In this state of Aloneness- I have started rediscovering the POWER OF ONENESS. This oneness has made be realise that my mind and heart are no longer separate from each other. Together they are entwined to to create the symphony of my existence.

I guess its just a small step towards enlightment and empowerment.

Just when all the pressures of the everyday chaos becomes overbearing- I ask myself....why do I need to live at all.

The devils advocate has a louder voice than all but what really reaches my heart a whisper made by the angel herself....

You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you. This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.

The thought helps me hold on and move on like true to spirit- WARRIOR OF LIGHT.

Hola!!!!